A letter for my clown

Dear clown,
First thing first, smile for me, will u? ^^

Through this letter, i wanna tell u, how grateful i am to be given the chance to meet u.
U r like a Godsend angel, came right when i'm hopeless and broken. How could i got near u and be this close, only God knows. I told u everything, and u accept me whole, u didn't leave me. Thank u.

U taught me another luv, not full of selfishness and jealousy, but sincerity and acceptance. U heal my heart w/ passion, so that i could escape from my bitterness. Silly clown, that's what i called u, but u r not silly at all. U r lovely.

U treated me so kindly, though i do nothing for u.
U make ashamed, through ur limitations, u still able to cheer me up. Don't pretend that u never cry, cry on my side, lean ur head on my arm.

Sometimes i seemed not to care about u at all, and very seldom i showed my luv to u. Dunno if i'm right, maybe u felt a bit upset if in audition i didn't kiss u back, or just keep silent with a ^^ when u said u luv me. I'm sorry.

U'll never read this, u maybe don't even have an id for this site.
There will come a day when i give u my id, and u may read everything, u may know my feeling.

There's no forever, cause forever is not meant to be in this world, and someday i may leave u. But i wanna see u smile w/ the best for u. It should be easy, u r like honey, bees r all around, ha7x.

Everytime u said u luv me, don't u understand what i feel? How i wanted to tell u back... I luv u too...
But i don't want to repeat the same mistake, so i just kept that words in my heart.
U know all 'bout me, and we r not meant to be together, i don't wanna hurt u like i did before to a girl i luv most.

I luv u, clown.
Dancing together w/ u in the game is more than enough for me.

---deRabbiT--- and TsubameOjiSama