In My Dream, that's the Only Place I Find My Happiness

Betrayed by someone loved most
this world is crowded, but I feel like being alone
don't want to take a step further
just stay where I am

Sometimes, all i see, is a huge wall in the front
not letting me to walk further
and I just surrender

Kneeling on my knees
with face full of tears
Others r laughing, and cheer
but I choose to cry

What's my mistake?
how can I love u more
for all that I did, I did it with all my heart
can't give u more, this love can't extend
stretched out from my hair to my toes
from my right hand's middle finger to the left of mine

Reality becomes a torture
and my heart never stops asking why
Hoping to that damn words "TIME WILL HEAL!"
IT DOESN'T WORK FOR ME!
yet one thing I can't deny, life still goes on
though I had hoped so much for my heart to stop beating

How can I be strong, even to lift up my head I've to struggle
Forgive and forget, who am I? A saint?
No, I'm not.
Yet I don't want to curse
spilling useless word here and there
anyhow, I still love u

How many times did I say
take me to Ur hands, good Lord
but I'm still breathing

I looked for so many ways to run
hiding myself alone in a spot nobody will find
but only one place welcomes me
within myself, no need to go far

Just lying this tired body on my bed
eyes closed, wiping the tears
and I surrender myself, uniting my breath together with the flowing breeze
hoping that once again I feel at peace.

That's the only place where I can smile
going back to the past,
standing outside together with the fresh snow rain
holding my angel's hands