Depressed: Is My True Feelings !

I want to cry...
But no drop of water that can be my eyes out...
I want to be angry...
But I have no reason to be angry...
I want to end my life...
But feel I must not give in to all this...
I want to find a cure for my wounds...
But I know it does not exist...
I want to share...
But not a single place to share my...
I want to pray...
But God never listens to my prayers...
I was tormented by the way my life...
But you're happy with the way that you chose for me...
I could not sleep thinking of you...
But you've always dreamed of a beautiful...
You ruined my life and get your happiness...
If it is a big liar then it will remain a big liar...
My biggest mistake is to maintain your...
My biggest mistake was to sacrifice everything for you...
I need friends, since God does not exist for me...
Someone, please help me...