My 'peaceful' dairy life

[peacely]

28-12-09

akhirnya liburan tiba
entah kenapa gw nyesel bgt pas semester 1 gw ga belajar bner"
mungkin gara" gw terlalu sombong, menganggap diri gw tuh paling pinter
padahal coba kalo gw blajar bner", pasti hasilnya bakal jauh lebih bagus
well...dah ga ada gunanya gw nyesel, semua dah terjadi, ga bsa diulang

kalo gtu semester 2 gw bakal serius blajar,
gw pengen ngebuktiin k orang" kalo gw tuh orang pinter beneran, bukan cuma di mulut
tp kok gw bingung yah knapa orang" percaya kalo gw tuh pinter?padahal kan gw cuma asal ngomong

tp sebelum serius blajar, gw pengen menikmati liburan dulu ah


sore

kenapa y orang" bilang kalo sma tuh masa" terbaik?
jujur kalo gw ngerasa pas kecil tuh jauh lebih baik
ga pernah mikirin ini itu, cuma main, main, dan main
ga pernah mikirin nilai, masa depan, ga ngebeda"in temen
seandainya gw bsa kembali ke masa lalu...

[peacely]

I just realized now
That i just a normal human, not special
I just a very small piece of the world

When i was child, i thought this world is a wonderful world, like a dream world

But now,
What i see is the world that full of lie
I dont want to live in the world like that
But that's the reality that i must accept
I dont have any other choice
I just need to walk on the path that i chose
Wether i like it or not, that's the reality that will never change



I lost my light
Light that always guide me in the darkness
Now
I only see darkness, pitch black
I cant see this world, i cant see myself
I cant do that anymore



I hope i could found my light again, if it impossible, i will make my own light, if it still impossible, i will be the light for the other

[peacely]

I scared
I scared because of this world
That's why...
I create a shield
A strong shield that protect me from this world

But...
My shield is very strong
Too trong...even for me
It grow stronger and i can't control it

I trapped in my own shield

I realized that i can't stay like this forever
That's why i try to break my own shield
The shield that always protect me but trapped me inside as well

My power is not enough to break my shield
I don't want to stay here anymore
I want to go outside
See many new things

It just a bit late
My shield has already covered me with darkness
I hope someone will save me
I don't want to be alone

I'm sure i can see the world again
The world that scared me
The world that give me light to live
I'm sure i can do it someday...