I'm the one that gonna be awkward if I meet know her.. Even I can't say hi.. just hi I can't.. and now I start my university and she still grade 10.. she has change me a lot.. She has make me to stop smoking cause I've asthma and pneumonia.. and she is the reason why I still try to survive to live.. cause the doctor said my lifOkay.. the case is like this.. I've love her more than one and half year.. actually she's my junior now she's grade 10.. okay let's call her RC.. if you wanna know her face just look on my ava that's her..![]()
Okay.. so like this.. as told you before I've love her more than one and half year.. she's a person that care on me.. she's a kind one.. and many people lust on her so we can say I'm her guardian that always guard her.. And for some reason she 'hate' or we can say being annoyed by me.. cause I always send her sms.. till now I still love her.. but.. she don't love me.. that the sad thing actually.. but I don't why but my heart still stuck on her.. my friend and brother said I've to move on but I can't my heart still stuck on her.. e tiem is no longer.. maybe it's about 3 years.. but I don't really believe on that thing cause he is a doctor not God.. So I try my best to survive.. Actually she's the reason why I still survive and try.. she's the reason why I still try.. Cause I don't wanna 'go' now..
Even for some reason I'll be happy if she happy even this heart turn into pieces.. I just wanna make and she her happy even she's not mine.. But.. sometimes at the time my heart broke.. I just turn into a hopeless person just turn into an 'Emo' or Psycho sometimes..
And yeah I wanna make her happy and I hope I'm the one that always be beside her.. But the truth and reality I can't.. And next year she will go to Australia or USA for college.. And our distance will be far far away.. and I can't meet her anymore..
Her family background is a rich one and I'm we can say the poor one.. and imagine what will her friend said 'if' one day she'll be mine.. or even her family about my family background.. yeah.. my mom already dead since I'm fifth grader.. and a lot of money have been use to cure her.. for the hospital and medicine.. okay back to RC..
So what should I do.. Give up on her and move on or Try till the time I've to say 'goodbye'![]()
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