my diary

[xueyequ]

A really heavenly voice, thank you for singing

[xueyequ]

oops, 7 am already, time to sleep. Just listened to her singing 'Lumpuhkan Ingatanku'. No, this time it's not her voice which is, as usual, amazing and heavenly. It's about the lyrics that I suddenly errrr, couldn't say anything rather than 'smiling'. The first time listening to it and, yea, another da*n lyric xDDD. I'm still human, I just realize it. hhhh.

Please keep accompany me through the nights, and if u wonder why i always sleep this late, errr, morning, it's because i'm so afraid of the continuous nightmare i will have if i start to sleep at normal time. Thanks again for singing, really love ur voice that i don't mind listening for hours and never a bit bored.

Thank You for U too, my Dear Jesus. Everything You give is more than enough for me. I love You.

[xueyequ]

it's a special day for some/most ppl. I hope they celebrate it happily with the ones precious for them. Be thankful if u have someone whom u love, who loves u. Love is supposed to be really beautiful, hhhh.

I love U, my Dear. Please hold my hands, and never let go.

when there are so much to write, but can only circling around in mind, don't know what words to start with, only know that it's pain at the end.
it's like, lost in space, no difference whether the earth is spinning or not, whether the sun or the moon is hiding forever, whether i try to run or to lie down.
like a steel which feels nothing whether it's hellish fire or freezing coldness.
but sometimes, a steel will curve when it's too hot, or fogged when it's too chill.
the same goes for a heart when it gets too lonely, no matter how (it tries to be) tough.

no, i'm not a big fans of valentine's day, it's just a coincidence that it happens to me now.
be strong, be strong, til the time comes. feeling is just a state of mind, i can shape it to whatever i like, fake smiles, running to the edge of the world, singing for nobody, or, enjoy my coffee and cigarettes.

my diary, u know what, if there's someone/something i pity the most, it's u. ur pages are filled with nothing good but useless words, about the disgusting me. it kinda makes u disgusting too, rite? we're both are as one, as u r the untold feeling about myself, which i will never express to ones who know me. but u know what too, at least u do something really useful for me, a place to share, things i wouldn't share to even the closest friends (like i have one, lol). so, u r still better than me, as u r still useful, even only to one person. maybe we're both disgusting, but for me, u r never one.

it's another time to sleep.

[xueyequ]

linked little fingers
broken promises
warmth that turns into coldness
happiness which turns into emptiness

I don't need all of those as a lesson.
What i need is, how to forget.
Time is not the answer, forgiveness isn't also, as I already did.

Live well, as one doomed is better than two.

[xueyequ]

gw jadi bawel kl grogi ya @@, lol. yah, mungkin xDDD. yg jelas udah cape main seharian, mungkin tidur cepet hari ini.

To my friend with the heavenly voice i always love to listen to, so i just know that u've never been in a relationship before. If i may say something, let me tell you that love can become something really terrible if you choose the wrong person. Don't be like me, who can never love someone else again, and moreover, intentionally destruct myself with my bad habit. Sure u got a lot of fans with that voice and with ur kind personality, wishing u can choose the best. I wonder if u still wanna sing for me after u find someone though, lol.

niat tidurnya jam 12, kynya baru bisa kesampean sekarang @@. good night my diary.

[xueyequ]

kynya gejala tipes nih, kl berdiri serasa muter", tp gpp lah, ga nyangka diajak cover duet @@
jadi minder sendiri, suara sebagus itu kok ajak gw ya, bukan yg lain yg bagusan dikit...
pokoknya maap kl ntr jadinya ky suara beauty n the beast T.T

jian dan ai, a lovely song, hhhh


shuo bu shang wei shen me
Couldn’t really say why
wo bian de hen zhu dong
I became very bold
re ai shang yi ge ren / shen me dou hui zhi de qu zuo
If you fall in love with someone, anything is worth doing

Pre chorus:

wo xiang da sheng shun bu
I want to announce loudly
dui ni yi yi bu she
That I can’t bear to be apart from you
lian ge bi ling ju dou cai dao wo xian zai de gan shou
Even my next door neighbors can guess my feelings right now

Chorus 1:

he bian de feng zai chui zhe tou fa **** dong
The breeze by the river, is blowing your hair, swaying

qian zhe ni de shou yi zhen mo ming gan dong
Holding your hand, a sense of unknowingly being touched
[all]
wo xiang dai ni hui wo de wai po jia
I want to take you to my grandma’s home
yi qi kan zhe ri luo yi zhi dao wo men dou shui jiao
Watching the sunset together until we fall asleep

Chorus 2:
[all]
wo xiang jiu zhe yang qian zhe ni de shou bu fang kai
I want to just hold your hand like this and not let go
ai neng bu neng gou yung yuan dan chun mei you bei ai
Can love be forever innocent without sadness

wo, xiang dai ni qi dan che
I want to take you bike-riding

wo, xiang he ni kan bang qiu
I want to watch baseball with you
[all]
xiang zhe yang mei dan you chang zhe ge yi zhi zou
Want to be like this with no worries, singing as we walk along
wo xiang jiu zhe yang qian zhe ni de shou be fang kai
I want to just hold your hand like this and not let go
ai ke bu ke yi jian jian dan dan mei you shang hai
Can love be simple without pain

ni, kao zhe wo de jian pang
You leaning on my shoulder

ni, zai wo xiong kou shui jiao
You sleeping on my chest
[all]
xiang zhe yang de sheng huo wo ai ni, ni ai wo
Like this kind of life, I love you, you love me
xiang~~~ jian jian dan dan ai~~~
Wanting simple simple love~~~
xiang~~~ jian jian dan dan ai~~~
Wanting simple simple love~~~

[xueyequ]

done with the recording. err, she says it's flat xDDD, i know it certainly.
it's the same like if i have to write romantic poem.

i can sing sad songs with no difficulty, i wonder how can i sing this lovely happy song... have to rerecord it later.

[xueyequ]

xDDD my diary, done recording today, and it's on her sc already. so glad i can do cover with such a nice voice. xDDD it makes my day although i have to record like 10 times, the hardest part is to make my voice sounds happy, lol, but finally it's done. thank u for doing cover with me and my ugly voice and also doing the mixing.

[Petrux-]

memang boleh ya post sampai segini banyak .?

[xueyequ]

memang boleh ya post sampai segini banyak .?

Ini diary kk, artinya buku harian, jadi boleh ngepost sehari 1x (oops jadi 2 deh hari ini krn reply ini), n kynya sih ada aturan ga blh post di diary org.



did i do something wrong, again?
maybe my existence is also a mistake too, even after i tried to include as few as possible in my 'world'
i know, for me, being alone is the best.

[xueyequ]

soft white cloud above,
feels like i can almost touch u
lying down into the gentleness
take shelter from this weary heart

life will be beautiful,
starting from the rising sun,
until another fresh new morning

hoping later, He will provide me a beautiful bird as a company
although i believe, there will be no loneliness up above
let me play with her each day long
feeling that i'm not alone

the moment i'm down on my knees,
i will survive and be strong
because of that dream only

i might be broken like little pieces of glass,
but i'm ready and at a peaceful mind

thank You,
when there's no reason to stay,
there will always be a dream to hope for


listening Memories of Heaven - Jang Jeong Woo

[xueyequ]

glad i can still hear ur voice.
glad that my selfishness doesn't win this time.

[xueyequ]

Thanks to my idol, u've done so much for me. Singing almost every night with the voice i'll never get bored of, making me laugh by sending funny pics, chatting with me in the morning so i can sleep after laughing until satisfied, and giving me some links of very good movies. Baru tau kl film teen romance thailand itu banyak yg bagus. Crazy Little Thing Called Love, a really nice movie.
Thanks for being with me all this time, to think that someday i've to disappear again from nice ppl like my old friends and u...
hhhh, it's not the first time, I'll be fine. Don't want to think about it for now, I still have 10 months.

[xueyequ]

Dreaming of yesterday,

the chilling coldness approaches me so suddenly

until all my fingers are shaking



the warm hug, the little fingers being linked together,

the cards we used to play with, the smile on ur lips

and the paper we both wrote our names down with the forever word includes on it



Damn you, the dream which haunts me until this time!

haven't u been satisfied with all the lonely nights i'm forced to bear?

I run to the edge of the world until the sun rises,

and you still chase me there!



Til when u gonna drain the strength within me,

When will u gonna have mercy to this exhausted soul?

Just go away, go away...



For the sake of all these long nights,

please vanish into thin air just like her

don't stab me ever again...



I will redeem the memory with forever loneliness

and with my own body

go away, and let me listen to the peaceful voice

without u.







I wish u happiness, forever. And my forever is not that short.

[xueyequ]

2 march 2014
thank you

now sleep tight >.<