my diary

[xueyequ]

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Houses that built on October > seru sih rumah hantu - rumah hantuan, tp ya tau bates jg, kl usah freaky stop dong, kena kan akhirnya.

(kehabisan stok film horror, jd beralih ke silat and action, lol)

The Four II > Lesson : ga semua orang melakukan sesuatu untuk kita hanya karena uang. Si kasim yg bawel rela korban nyawa buat rajanya, begitu jg dgn pengawal"nya. btw, si Emotionless (Liu Yi Fei) cantikkkk, wkwk.

Man of *** Chi > Lesson (lagi) > kekerasan/kemarahan banyak ngerugiin, meskipun ada saatnya bisa bikin kita lbh kuat.

kl gini caranya, lama" gw mesti nonton apaan lagi. moga" ke depannya para produser jadi rajin bikin film horror/thriller atau minimal silat/action deh. jgn sampe aja gw kehabisan stok film sampe terpaksa nonton komedi/romance/sci-fi, atau malah kartun ya T.T
sci-fi sih msh boleh deh, macem transformer gt.

ok my dear, back to The Last Stand.

[xueyequ]

wo bu pei ni shuo dui bu qi, mommy. zhe dou shi wo de cuo. mei you wo, ni hui geng kuaile. shi shihou rang wo qu, hao hao zhaogu ziji.

yap, bntr lagi as patch. bagus la, udah bosen sama lagu" yg sekarang, moga" lagu barunya bagus" /48

[xueyequ]

Laughing like crazy every night. hey, i can't remember when was the last time i sing properly.
Thank u so much, friends. Though we haven't known each other for too long, believe me, time with u was the only time i really laugh.
tapi yaa, jgn bully trs"an juga, kasianin pipi gw weh, please! wkwk

[xueyequ]

Mourning Grave << must see!!
horror korea emang bagus"

[xueyequ]

Kungfu Jungle < keren actionnya

kok ini diary isinya jadi film semua, wkwk
something to write about, but it won't come out from my fingers.
i'm not that good to express my feeling anymore
this little world of mine has reduced my necessity even to pour up my own-almost-empty feeling.

let me try later.

[xueyequ]

Aku menatap dia, dengan hembusan asap rokoknya yg tak pernah berhenti.
Heran, dia begitu bahagia, meskipun selalu duduk di tempat yang sama.

Yg kutahu pasti, dia suka mendengarkan musik, aku dapat melihat dia terus memutar beberapa lagu yg sama.
Aku tak cantik, tak bisa menyanyi, tapi setiap kali aku menatapnya, pandangan kami beradu, dan dia tak pernah melepaskannya sedikitpun, setiap malam.

Tapi malam ini dia berbeda, dia menekan tombol off pada bagian bawah layarku, seraya berkata lirih, "Jika selama ini aku terbangun untuk menghindari mimpi buruk dan terhibur oleh kehadiranmu, sekarang mimpi itu jauh lebih baik daripada sakit karena kehilangannya.

[xueyequ]

let it flow all over my veins
the voice that pierces through the thickest wall
although i have to surrender to this numbness
i can still feel its peace and beauty

fragile, yet powerful. I've been missing ur voice for so long, which i heard again last night.
we're strangers now, as what it's meant to be between us, but i never regret the time that we met.
urs is still the most heavenly voice i've ever listened to, my idol.

[xueyequ]

Don't u know that hurting others are hurtful to me too?
well, i'm selfish, ignorant, basically nothing good, but still, although i keep saying that i'm heartless, it still feel pains.
But, for u, i take that risk of hurting ppl who are incredibly kind to me. My one and only reason is u.

I know for sure where we will lead into, until the time when I have to leave and keep these memory with u just for myself.
But, as u told me that love is always painful, I can't ignore the invitation to feel this pain too. And my one and only reason is u.
I can't bear even to imagine that i have to go through my lonely nights without u, without listening to ur voice and ur cheerful laugh.

So, before we cry together later, just let me hug u through my voice, let me cheer u up through our jokes, let me tell u how precious u are.
I've done so many mistakes before and i've learned from them by endless regrets for all of my lifetime, so i will never cross the border.
I will hurt u along our way, but i will also make u feel that u r worthy to be loved, more than anyone else.

For each tear fall from ur eyes later, I'll pay it with all my heart.
I don't wanna say forever because usually forever ends too soon, it's more likely, til the end of me.
Thanks for the love, and when I say i love u too, it's never a lie.
Thanks for bringing me to life once again, to make me realize that i'm still human.

A hug for u, sweet dream.

[xueyequ]

dp
sorry

[xueyequ]

the dream i had yesterday, xD usually dreams about her are nightmares for me as i could wake up shouting like a crazy ppl and sometimes still with my wet eyes.
but ytd, we talked happily, and i woke up feeling peaceful. i might just cheering myself up and imagining things, but as long as this dream about her isn't torturing me, that's fine with me.

for passengers of Air Asia QZ 8501 and their families, i hope the best for them.

[xueyequ]

1, 2, 3, 4, 5
playing with hearts as if i'm counting with my fingers

l, o, v, e
alphabets are so fun to play with

it's time for me to end all of these,
enough playing and hurting.
this blood i vomit, i don't know how many more times
until all strength drowned, the moment that body and soul are separating

tic tac tic tac, zap
tic tac tic tac, zap

this silence is slowly erasing any memories i have.
with her, with the one after her, with the other one, and other ones.

In the end, i find myself alone,
with whiffs of smoke and a big cup of coffee

I kneel down for forgiveness,
then I smile, leaving all regrets behind.
Please reach my hands and take me home.

[xueyequ]

Our promises, those are made out of selfishness.
Heartwarming, and full of hope, beyond the reach of time and space.
I don't even need to say forever, because forever itself will hug us later.
Thank you, for making me feeling so peaceful.
The heavenly voice i hear days and nights, it's good enough.
You are good enough, actually, you are more than that.