RC with Love~

[Ellectric~]

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[Ellectric~]

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@RC_19;

[RC_19]

Aku kembali k rumahku yang sunyi ini..
Kembaliku hirup udara yang telah menghilang sejak lama

[RC_19]

What I've done?

I almost forgot the one who cares for me that have love me and be there for me?
Distance wont matter at all..
But..
Heart thats matter.. A heart to love someone care to someone and be there for someone..
Nobody's perfect in this world..
Nobody can do all the things that you want..
But..
That person will try..
And there's a special space in this heart for those people that I care about and that I love..
Sometimes we need someone to make us forget about our problems..
We need someone to make us smile feeling comfortable and feel we want to live again..
Because when we lost our way when we lost our hope when we lost our purpose, we should remember those people who love us and care for us..
Don't break their heart, and I know you won't break their heart..
Live for yourself..
And live for the people that still here care for you and love you because once you're gone they will lost someone inside their heart..

[SIZ-]

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You’re right there sitting next to me
But..
I can even say what is inside my heart to you
I’m to scared on losing someone that I love
Im to scared that you’re go away avoid me and I can’t protect you anymore
I’m sitting here quitly hiding my feelings even my heart crying right now
I can’t even speak a word..
It’s hurts.. hurts a lot..
It feels like a knife cuts my blood veins
I don’t know until when I can hide this feeling from her
I don’t know for how long I can stand
I’m just a weak person to weak
If I had a chance just a chance
Its sad.. so sad..
I’m using a mask right now to keep me smile infront of her
A mask to hide my tears to hide my sadness
Till that times come when I’m ready to say to you “I love you”

[SIZ-]

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I feel so useless..
I’m nothing even in my eyes I’m nothing..
I’m sorry I can’t even protect you, protect your heart..
I’m just a fucking ******* that keep silence in here..
A silence just silence..
And I only can look at you and watching you from a distances..
I’ve try and try to touch you but I can’t..
The only thing I can do now is pretending, pretend that I have no feelings with her..
Yes..
I lie to myself..
I lie that I said I don’t love her..
I lie that I said I don’t need her beside me
I lie I’m living in a lie..
Lying to my heart so I can be fine..
But..
Those smile those laugh, it just as fake..
Can I be yours?
That’s the question inside my brain inside my heart and I can’t answer it till now..

[SIZ-]

It just a song for you..
A song that show me my feelings..
See you and smiling that the only I can do..
Smilling in my face but crying in my heart..
I hate love but why, why I have to stuck with someone that wont be mine..
The more I try the more I cry..
The more scars inside this heart..
When I see you smile, I feel full
But..
When I see you cry, there’s something wrong happen in my heart..
If I could I gonna protect you with all I have with all I got..
If I could I wanna hold your hand tight..
I wana make you smile a real smile..
I wanna be the reason for you to smile again
I miss your smile I miss your laugh
I MISS YOU! And I LOVE YOU!

[SIZ-]

What if I try to avoid you will you ask me why?
What if I gone? Will you find me?
What if I cry will you wipe my tears?
Will you even try to make me laugh when im sad?
Will you?
Can I always be there beside you when you know that I love you?
I feel so happy because you’re sitting there beside me
But..
I can’t really speak much things right now..
Every I close my eyes I see you
Please don’t go away..
Please don’t avoid me..
Because I can’t hold it anymore..
Because I love you

[SIZ-]

Ask you know as you fade away..
Avoiding me by ignoring me..
Is it a wrong thing?
Am I wrong?
Or do I did something wrong?
It comes again those feelings..
Despate feelings sadness and sorrow..
The deeper I think of it the more this sadness comes..
Loving someone that never be with you..
Hoping something that will never happen..
Only tears that I can show to you..
With silence I can say that I love you…
In sadness I can be there beside you..
For how long its gonna be..
Lying to myself and to you..
Because I’m scared losing you..

[SIZ-]

I’m just a clown..
Someone that will wipe your tears..
Will erase you sadness..
And I gonna make you smile again..
Because I didn’t wanna see you living in the sadness like I do..
I’ve been there so many times and I don’t want that happen to you..
Being a clown is it enough?
You don’t have to think or care about my heart..
Because I don’t even think of it..
Because I care about your heart..
Because I care all the little things about you..
That’s why I’m standing right here looking at you and thinking about you..
I don’t care how many water will drops from my eyes
But I care and I don’t want even just a water drop from your eyes..
Me..
I don’t have anything except a heart for you..
The answer it’s in you will you accept this heart or not..

[SIZ-]

I cry when I see you cry..
And I’ll smile when I see you smile
I’m just a reflect of yourself..
An automatic machine that accept people sadness and change it into laugh..
I miss your smile..
That’s why I wanna make you smile again..
So I can see those beautiful smile in your face and in your heart..
Sitting down here and waiting for you to come is one of the things I can do..
I can’t speak out if you’re there sitting down there right beside me..
I can read your mind but I can’t read your heart..
I don’t know who am I in your eyes..

[SIZ-]

Sebuah puisi yang menggambarkan isi hati ini..
Kutuangkan di atas kertas kosong ini..
Kutuliskan dengan segenap perasaan yg ku rasakan..
Raikaian huruf-huruf yang terukir dan terbentuk menjadi sebuah kata..
Layaknya serpihan-sepirhan hati yang telah hancur kembali menjadi satu..
Seperti sebuah puzzle yang berantakan dan di susun ulang kembali..
Kecocokan sebuah puzzle layaknya senyuman yang keluar darimu..
Tapi kehilangan satu bagian dari sebuah puzzle itu layaknya seperti kesedihan yang terukir dari matamu..
Sebuah kesedihan yang engkau tunjukan..
Senyuman yang telah hilang darimu itulah yang aku lihat dan ku rasakan..
Mungkin kamu dapat membohongi banyak orang, tapi tidak untuk diriku..
Karna itu terlihat jelas dari matamu..
Jangalah engkau berdiri sendiri karena aku siap dan akan menemanimu melewati ini..
Aku bukan siapa-siapa dan akupun tidak mempunyai apa-apa untuk ku berikan kepadamu..
Hanya 1 hal yang ku punya..
Tetapi..
Apakah kau akan dan mau menerima hal itu?

[RC_19]

Year by year pass by..
Living in a regret..
And tears won't stop falling down..
If I can have my last chance I will hug her and say I love you..
But..
I don't have that chance..
Its already too late..
Is it wrong to cry?
I miss those love
A pure love from heart to heart
A love that never be separate even by distance or time or even world
A love that touch my heart..
With a soft voice she taught me everything..
She gonna smile even she feel so tired..
She always remind me when I do something stupid..
She always be there beside me when i'm sad..
She know the way how to calm me down when i cried..
But..
Why you gone so fast?
Why you left me here alone?
Why you say "good bye"?
Why you leave without any sign?
And..
Thanks..
Thanks for always be there for me when I'm sad even we are in the different wold you still come..
Thanks for the lesson you have taught me..
Thanks for you never ending love..
Thanks for everything..
I love you

[MorOnnS]

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