SIZ's diary the diary of a Vampire

[RC_19]

I'm just a vampire, I used to drink my own blood but I don't wanna taste others because it gonna be so complicated in the future..
Tonight I wonder.. There's a person that hold me that I can say She can change me.. She's my everything for me even she's not mine.. I care about her.. I'm just an introvert trying to socialize even I know it's so tiring for me to be honest.. But I try to change my personality even it's hard actually.. How come an introvert socialize? And tonight maybe I gonna drink my own blood again see ya..

[RC_19]

Right now.. I'm still thinking about my last night dream.. If it's my sign if my time has come then I'm hopeless.. I smell her perfume and I think she's near by.. I miss her a lot.. And if today is my last time.. Then I'm hopeless..

[RC_19]

To night.. My lungs got hurts again..
It's blood yes it's blood I'm chocking and the blood comes out.. Every night my lungs getting worst.. I don't know for how long I can hold on.. For how long I can fight.. But.. I won't give up.. I'll fight for her.. For the one that inside my heart the one that I love.. I care about her.. I don't care if she is care about me or not.. But.. I won't stop caring on her.. I love you ****** ********

[RC_19]

Once I can't feel my heart anymore the only thing I can do is making a joke of myself..
I can't smile or even laugh.. This heart it's break into pieces and I still smile.. Even it just a fake smile.. I don't care about how hurts it will be but I will stand there right there for you

[RC_19]

I'm tired to socialize.. An introvert go inside the society? What a great achievement I've been through..
But again it's useless.. As usual like before they only judge the book by their cover.. Too many piece of **** in this world.. I laugh when they said I've to change hey man.. You have to look into the mirror.. Look at yourself *****.. Who are you? Do you have any rights to judge me? Piece of ****!