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[jokoyo]

for my cousin, to be among genius ppl is hard, but I know you can get through it and pass.
just remember not to put too much stress on yourself and everything will be okay.
and one more thing, smiles are the key to happiness, no matter what you are going through.
you know my story, and you know you'll always see me smiling everyday. you can too.
see you later on april, and we'll race again on a typing match. at that time i'll win!

[jokoyo]

Happiness is simple, it's just about forgetting the past and enjoy what you have now.
As for me, it is a glass of coffee and cigarettes, sometimes while singing, writing, or spending my leisure time playing FF XIII. Unlike the hardcore gamer i was, but going through a slow progress. Sometimes an hour or even half each time. I admire that game makers, they have provided me great fun with their games since i was a kid. Yea, I'm a fan of FF series.

I'm really thankful that I can enjoy this kind of life, please bless others who are less fortunate, who spend every night with the moon and stars as their roof.

[fiqrham]

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[jokoyo]

Feeling alive again after one week, so fresh and relieved. Thanks God.
To realize that it's not how long we live, but how we enjoy every moment given, that's amazing.
There are times to care about others, and there are times to sit down and relax, being with those who are precious near me.
Every moment is a blessing, later I might be not this lucky to get through what I've just faced, so in the meanwhile, I'll make the most of it.
Time will pass along with changes, that's unavoidable, but everything will be fine as I know what's important for me.
Love is shareable in so many ways, for others, for those dearest to me, and for myself.
Thank You.

[jokoyo]

The idea about all human were born with sins, sometimes it's hard to accept. Sometimes I'm tempted to say, how could innocent babies carry sins while they're just born?
But rather than debating on who is right or who is wrong, I'll just admit that I'm not a good people. I did mistakes since as long as I can remember. There are times when I repent and I have no doubt that He's really that kind to forgive everything I've done. And although my sins escalate along with the time I grew up, His love remains unchanged.

Do I play with His love when I do mistakes and repent just to do it again? I realize there are so many holes for me to do many mistakes, with acts or thoughts and, knowing that nobody is perfect, I believe that I don't. Years ago, that's the moment when I was struggling, even doubting a simple question whether I'm a human being or not, I was so dirty, hypocrite, hurting so many ppl, and although I realized them all, I kept on going in the name of selfishness. I was blinded and lost.

Do I believe in miracles? In my case, I'm stupid if I don't. To be who I am now after all that happened, it's like I'm arisen from the grip of death. I still do mistakes, still being selfish sometimes, and the regret because of my past is still there, but I'm glad that time made me learn about something important, faith.
I can't change the past, and there's so little chance to fix everything broken because of that, but I can do something by trying to heal others, telling them about what I've going through, and giving them not to choose the same way as I did.

Basically, our necessities are more or the less the same as we're all human with blood and flesh. That's why I wasn't at all surprised when, in one case, somebody tell me that being ignorant to the outside world is the best way not to be hurt. And later when she said that, "It's just that I feel empty, but everything else is alright.", that's what happened to me too. Time taught me to make a conclusion, emptiness is more hurting than being hurt itself. I might feel comfortable with it once, but for sure it didn't last forever.

I'm sorry for my mistakes, whether it's forgiven or not. I forgive everything that has passed and I'm relieved.


Btw, I find it funny and ironical to realize that I don't use the male main character on FF13 as my main squad although he's one of the best choice. I use Lightning, Hope, and Fang instead. And I'm really glad to know that sometimes Lightning prefer herself to be called Light.

[jokoyo]

The idea about all human were born with sins, sometimes it's hard to accept. Sometimes I'm tempted to say, how could innocent babies carry sins while they're just born?
But rather than debating on who is right or who is wrong, I'll just admit that I'm not a good people. I did mistakes since as long as I can remember. There are times when I repent and I have no doubt that He's really that kind to forgive everything I've done. And although my sins escalate along with the time I grew up, His love remains unchanged.

Do I play with His love when I do mistakes and repent just to do it again? I realize there are so many holes for me to do many mistakes, with acts or thoughts and, knowing that nobody is perfect, I believe that I don't. Years ago, that's the moment when I was struggling, even doubting a simple question whether I'm a human being or not, I was so dirty, hypocrite, hurting so many ppl, and although I realized them all, I kept on going in the name of selfishness. I was blinded and lost.

Do I believe in miracles? In my case, I'm stupid if I don't. To be who I am now after all that happened, it's like I'm arisen from the grip of death. I still do mistakes, still being selfish sometimes, and the regret because of my past is still there, but I'm glad that time made me learn about something important, faith.
I can't change the past, and there's so little chance to fix everything broken because of that, but I can do something by trying to heal others, telling them about what I've gone through, and giving them an option not to choose the same way as I did.

Basically, our necessities are more or the less the same as we're all human with blood and flesh. That's why I wasn't at all surprised when, in one case, somebody tell me that being ignorant to the outside world is the best way not to be hurt. And later when she said that, "It's just that I feel empty, but everything else is alright.", that's what happened to me too. Time taught me to make a conclusion, emptiness is more hurting than being hurt itself. I might feel comfortable with it once, but for sure it didn't last forever.

I'm sorry for my mistakes, whether it's forgiven or not. I forgive everything that has passed and I'm relieved.


Btw, I find it funny and ironical to realize that I don't use the male main character on FF13 as my main squad although he's one of the best choices. I use Lightning, Hope, and Fang instead. And I'm really glad to know that sometimes Lightning prefer herself to be called Light.

[jokoyo]

Staring at the transparent light far in the sky,
my mind sees two paths, about the future and the past
seconds tick, taking what it should, bringing me steps further on my journey
while sometimes, it rolls back to my explored moments

flying butterflies on a greenfield, that's the dim shadow which comes out
with two kids chasing one after another
I can almost hear the sound of their laugh
followed by their happy shouts

purity and innocence,
followed by the dreams about future
although they know nothing,
time passes without little bit burdens in their hearts

No miracles or healing needed,
as no slightest scar inside

slowly they begin to fade away
replaced by the transparent light I saw before

[fiqrham]

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