The Diary

[babooshka]

the attitude.the feeling.the taste.the problem.the truth.the fact.the hurt.the happiness.and the risk.

[babooshka]

my life is a fantasy
i don't ? a phalacy.
i'm tired of philosophy
i think that i know where i wanna be
i'm tired of making plans
i don't wanna feel i can understand
i'm tired but i wanna be
i'll see today what i wanna see
i'll see...

right now, my head is a supernova
when i get f##ked up my life is over
my life is over
my life...

i'm tired of the thought of me
my life is the way that it oughta be
you and me are all alone
you know that's the way that i wanna be

when im on my own
my life feels like something i've been thrown
it's not that i'm not pleased with it
sometimes i don't feel at ease with it
i'm tired!

right now, my head is a supernova
when i get f##ked up my life is over

my life is over
my life is over
my life is over
my life is over
my life is over

[babooshka]

it gives me pain, when i think of you
and the things together that we'll never do
at first it's code, and then it's hot
tried to be someone that Iiknow I'm not

i'm in trouble, and i know it
how i'm feeling, i can't show it
but these feelings, don't go away

i remember you, lines on your face
sharing a moment in the perfect place
i'm deep in your eyes, and inside your head
and i try to reach you, when i'm in my bed

there is no choice, in what i must do
nothing is greater than to be with you

[babooshka]

i dont't know why we have to argue every single day?
you said i'm a child
but you just don't realise the way you thought
scares me about our future
everything i do doesn't seems enough for you
everything doesn't seems right for you
and i'm tired
give me just a little time
i can't stand this situation anymore!

[babooshka]

now you say you're lonely
you cry the long night through
well, you can cry me a river
cry me a river
i cried a river over you

now you say you're sorry
for being so untrue
well, you can cry me a river
cry me a river
i cried a river over you

you drove me, nearly drove me, out of my head
while you never shed a tear
remember, i remember, all that you said
you told me love was too plebeian
told me you were through with me and

now you say you love me
well, just to prove that you do
come on and cry me a river
cry me a river
i cried a river...over you...

[babooshka]

a friend said to me "all men may fall into you"

but how deep they can be? how far they can show? how long they can stay?

nothing is last forever

everything is beautiful at the start and then hurt in the end

[babooshka]

she's got blink eyelash
she's got blink shadows in her eyes
she's got blink lips color
she's got blink earring
she's got blink accessories
she's got blink in her top
she's got blink in her shoes

she's blink-blink
she thought about blink all the time
she's blink mind like "yaw-yaw i'm sweet and i love to look so cute with the blink-blink things in me"

she just can't live without the blink-blink thing

poor her she's got nothing in her brain

[babooshka]

there's a fairytale
you never learned to read or write
like an oyster shell
you never learned to look inside

you're not like me
my duty speaks and it moves my feet
i love to be free
i don't like to make so much plans
i live freely

you don't understand
just like the rock in my head
you won't understand
because you never cared to look inside
never cared and never cared!

[babooshka]

your sadness don't lie
your feelings can't hide
you always know why
but your reasons are sly
you never deny
what you feel inside

i disappear when you're not here in my life

i can't slip away when i see your face
i lose my confusion
your love is the place where i come from
when i'm on my own
i'm lost in space
my freedoms a delusion
your love is the place where i come from

my sadness don't lie
my feelings can't hide
i just can't deny
what i feel inside

[babooshka]

there's no future so don't fake it
don't know if you're going to make it
when everything becomes unclear

i'm tired and i'm broken
my true feelings remain unspoken
i couldn't hide behind your name

i'm excited and ecstatic
my exit was so dramatic
when all your passion disappeared

i am no sucker so don't blow it
i'm succeeding but you don't know it
i've got to turn yourself around

[babooshka]

she knows that i've been doing something wrong
but she won't say anything
she thinks that i was being honest all the time
but she won't mind me lying

because

mama stands for comfort
mama will hide the murderer

it breaks the cage, and fear escapes
just like a crowd rioting inside
(make me do this, make me do that, make me do this, make me do that...)
am i the cat that takes the bird?
to her the hunted, not the hunter

she’s just know that i’m her little girl, i could do something wrong and she always forgive and watching me
never said anyword when i did something bad, even she’s hurting she’s just watching me
and when i run away from her then suffer she’s just asking me to come home and forgive
telling me i don’t have to worry because i have her and she will protect me even she doesn’t have that much power to do
she said i have nothing to worry because life is always about mom and her beloved child
no matter how hard, she said i will always be her little girl

mama stands for comfort
mama will hide the murderer
mama hides the madman
mother will stay mama

i wish i could turn back time and tell you how much you mean to me

i miss you mama. you’re in heaven. you’re save and you will always be mama in me

[babooshka]

with my hand in your hand
we were both happy again
you started taking sides
we started arguing
you said it was my fault
i said it wasn't at all
but the truth lies somewhere in the middle

where angels fear to tread
you go rushing in
i had to tell you then
and now i'm telling you again

stay out of this
you must not interfere
don't you see this is
between a man and a woman?

every day and night i pray
pray that you will stay away forever
it's so hard for love to stay together
with your fussy east pressures
i don't want to say it,
but i had to tell you then,
and now i'm telling you again

stay out of this
oh, i know you mean to help me
and i know you've good intentions
but stay out of this
this isn't your problem
do not interfere--you are not needed here--
let the pendulum swing
between a man and a woman.
don't you see? you're in the way--between a man and a woman--

you're full of plan
much logic
i am with my mind
my paradoxical mind--you said--
i said FVCK the rules
you're robot
you won't understand

every day and night i pray
let the pendulum swing
this is between a man and a woman
between a man and a woman

[babooshka]

when you wish you could turn back time and wishing you didn't be in the place you were stand now

crying inside your heart, screaming!

can't ever tell

stuck! crash! desperate!

this is when the miserable come in to your life

[babooshka]

been bought and i've been sold
i've forgot what i've been told
and now i need someone
of all the stars i've ever seen
where's the sun?

hang on
i've not forgotten all the tricks
that you've done


i'm going underground to reassess
just what i've found
and all that i can do
been blinded by my feelings for you
now i can go with a smile

but i need someone

[babooshka]

i don't want control of you
doesn't matter to me
the very heart and soul of you
are places i wanna see

everyday i look in a different face
feelings getting stronger with every embrace

i don't want a world of pain
falling so much tears
don't want this love to stay the same
growing with every year

tired of situations
that mean nothing to me
you've been a pain figure for me