The Diary

[babooshka]

i can't find my way home
stuck in time since i moved on

what i've got is what's here
what you say is what i hear
far away life don't come near

where i go...
and i know where i go wrong
i don't know where i belong

my mind's made up and i know why
seasons change and time goes by

what i've found has changed me
change is what you can't see
being home is what found me

i need shoulder to cry on

[babooshka]

i don't want to waste your time
and the thought of you is tearing me apart

had a name but now that's gone
i don't know where i went wrong
now i'm all alone and drifting in the dark

take me back to what i know
cause i don't know where to go
and i'm finding it so hard to stay in tune

it's hard to comprehend
getting closer to the end
and i hope that i'll be feeling better soon

now i'm just a fading light
but i want to feel alright
and i hope that someone can help me through the days

and i find it hard to sleep
i find it so hard to get through
do you think about me when i go away

[babooshka]

it's so hard
to fall in love
for i have knowing what i know
for i've been seeing all the things i've seen

maybe i should crawl away for a while
maybe i shouldn't smile so much
who is the one with the killing secret?

i've counted the times
thinking over and over
every word we had to say

now i know what want is
another chance to reach too high
nothing will last forever and ever
now i'm just a jerk in a long, long line

[babooshka]

been burned and with both feet on the ground
i've learned that it's painful coming down
no use running away, and there's no time left to stay
now i'm finding out that it's so confusing
no time left and i know i'm losing

i think im falling down,
crashed! and my ears can't hear a sound
my eyes can't see
my mind can't think

desperate!

[babooshka]

it's just everything i do
what we did together
left a little piece of you
in whatever

YOU'RE THE ONLY ONE I WANT!


every guy is not you
every guy can't do what you do
every guy can't make me laugh and cry at the same time
let's change things
let's danger it up
we're crazy enough
i just can't take it

but still

YOU'RE THE ONLY ONE I WANT


i don't want to leave
sugar?...
honey?...
baby?...

[babooshka]

electro boy.. electro boy.. with laser gun electro boy
electro boy.. don't you know i didn't do nothing electro boy
i was alone in my dark room and no one knows oh electro boy
electro boy.. electro boy.. with laser gun and i was alone

thinking of him all night long
with the saddest song
i only cry and felt so wrong
when everything was gone
was gone
was gone
was gone

oh help me! electro boy

electro boy.. electro boy.. with laser gun electro boy
electro boy.. don't you know i'm not a criminal electro boy
i wanna tell him that i love him and he doesn't know oh electro boy
electro boy.. electro boy with laser gun and i lose control

don't you know? i didn't do nothing
don't you know? i was alone and i loose control

[sobbing] [sobbing [sobbing] [sobbing] [sobbing] [sobbing]

[babooshka]

what have been through 'till today
i don't know... where's the happiness?

everyone seems seek for happiness
but what happiness means to everyone?
how do peoples describe a happiness?
tell me...

live in peace is a happiness
being in the right place is a happiness
spending lifetime with our beloved is happiness
working in comfort environment is a happiness

but where's my happiness?

where is people's heart?
where is the kindness?
where is mercy?
where is affection?

everyone seems never cared to look inside

people blaming each other
people screwing each other
people quarreling each other
people revenge each other

it's make me fed up

[babooshka]

all i hear is raindrops falling on the rooftop
tell me why do you have to go
cause this pain i feel it won’t go away
and today i’m officially missing you


i thought that from this heartache, i could escape
but i’ve fronted long enough to know
there ain’t no way
and today i’m officially missing you


can’t nobody do it like you
said every little thing you do
said it stays on my mind
and i’m officially...


all i do is lay around, my days full of tears
from looking at your face on the photo
just a week ago you were my baby
now i don’t even know you at all, I don’t know you at all


i wish that you would call me right now
so that i could get through to you somehow
i guess it’s safe to say
that i’m officially missing you


i thought i could just get over you
but i see there’s something i just can’t do
from the way you would hold me
to the sweet things you told me
i just can’t find a way to let go of you

[babooshka]

so confused
i almost threw it all away for you
you took me higher
and you dropped me lower
than i've ever been before

shockkk!!!
if i have a heart attack
it's because i'm into you too much
if i have a heart attack
wave bye-bye
may be you'll miss me
then you could think all over what have you bring into my life

i waste so much love on you

[babooshka]

i don't want anything...

i don't need anything...

i can't go back again...

you fake me to a high...

[babooshka]

wish that i could close my eyes
and stop this room from moving
because any sound could cause surprise

won't someone come see me
and change my weather


i still feel so down
and low ...
so down ...
and so low ...


why don't you be me???


i don't want this feeling to stay the same


i just wanna come down slow and nice

[babooshka]

a someday is unpredictable
it could be in short time
it could be a long time
i don't wanna dream about someday
because i live for today
i don't wanna think about that someday
because i don't even know if i can live 'till tomorrow


but what was i thinking in my head ...


that i could back to that time
the time when we're still together
that i'm not sleeping alone
the time that i could smell you beside me
and all i know is all about you and me
our bedroom avenue
the feeling when you make love to me and i make love to you
we're so close, we're one...

that i wish that time is stopping
i don't wanna face tomorrow
i don't want another day
because that day
the day we were so in love and meant to be
i don't wanna face tomorrow because may be i'm going to loosing you
i just want the day to stop and everything is just us

i wanna do all the stupid things together
our foolish thought about the world and people
but we're in same visions
you and i...
we were so in love

that is not a dream
but my fantasy
a fantasy that i don't know when i could go back to that time
missing and loosing you.. making me hard to breath


i just don't want to dream about someday..
i want to live for tomorrow
i want to live for what is real


it's you the destiny..
it's you..

[babooshka]

some of us... are meant to be suffer
but we still have to live
beacause we have to wait and see how the story ends

[babooshka]

destiny..
may be is the bridge that you made for the one you love to reach you

i wish everyone and me to have a happy ending
and wisdom to look for it

[babooshka]

day one