The Diary

[babooshka]

no doubt
you're gonna be thinking
i'll run out
that's where you're so mistaken
you take me to a high
of just no other kind

i don't want anything (but you)

the size
just seems to get bigger
the prize is, well, just go figure
When i think way back when
i can't go back again

i don't want anything (but you)

my half
i thought i'd be stronger
but my path
to you just seems longer
you fake me to a high
of just no other kind

don't want anything (but you)

[babooshka]

screw me, you try

i'm gonna kill some
i'm gonna free some
i'm gonna lose someone
i'm gonna taste (fake?) some
i'm gonna want some
i'm gonna believe (need?) someone

what you're feeding me
don't make a mark of me
i don't bruise so easily
no scars inside

i tell it face to face
got no time to taste
my memory's your fate
no scars inside

send me alone

AAHHH... you motherfvkcer!

[babooshka]

i only hear what i want to
i talk so all the time so
i thought what i felt was simple
i thought that i don't belong
and now that i am leaving
i don't know if i did something wrong cause i missed you
i missed you

i don't listen hard
don't pay attention to the distance that you're running
to anyone, anywhere
i don't understand if you really care
i'm only hearing negative : no.. no.. no..

i thought i'd live forever, but now i'm not so sure
you won't take me anyhow, or anywhere with you

you said that i was naive
and i thought that i was strong
i thought "hey, i can leave, i can leave"
but now i know that i was wrong, cause i missed you
i missed you

you said you caught me cause you want me and one day you'll let me go
you try to give away a keeper, or keep me cause you know you're just scared to lose
and you say you "stay"
but you don't

[babooshka]

one day you see a strange little girl look at you
one day you see a strange little girl feeling blue
she'd run to the town one day
leaving home and the country fair

strange little girl
she didn't know how to live in a town that was rough
it didn't take long before she knew she had enough
walking home in her wrapped up world
she survived but she's feeling old
and she found all things cold

strange little girl
where are you going?

[babooshka]

and i was talking to you
and i knew then it would be
but i didn't know that we
we could break a silver lining

and i'm so sad
like a good book
i can't put this day back

things you said that day
i tried to downplay it
with a bet about us
as long as i could
i could not erase it

and i rode along side you then
till you lost me there in the open road

i could pick back up
whenever i feel

i could taste heaven perfectly
feel out the summer breeze
didn't know when we'd be back
and i don't
i didn't think
we'd end up like
like this

[babooshka]

and it's so strange the way you've changed
you knew me well
now i can tell you don't know anything

you let me down again
you drove me to the end

[babooshka]

how can you say
after all we've done together
it's gonna take forever
to mend what's come apart
how can you say
that you never meant to hurt me
you didn't dare alert me
to your poisoned heart

before too long
something is wrong
tell me you're too sick to mention
show me about your good intention
give me all of your attention
but i don't believe a word
don't believe a word

i hate to say but
you know you're growing older
and your eyes are getting colder
and your hair is falling out
there'll be a day
when your confidence is shaken
and you know you were mistaken
you'll have your doubts

[babooshka]

she's reformed.
just like the neighbor's girl
she's coming home
into her wonder world

she's moving fast
she's a superstar
she's getting high
she covers up her scars

it's the best thing she's ever had

it's the best thing she's ever had..

[babooshka]

anyway, you will take what you need
anyway, you will take it from me
straight to the ledge
loose yourself in the sound
i know how you'll go down

anyway, you will get what you want
why should i wait for that day to come?
straight to the ledge
one last smile and you're gone
step out over the edge
as if nothing is wrong

it will be quick and painless and easy
i don't want you to leave me
but you'll go anyway

[babooshka]

life was good to me
but you just made it better
i love the way you stand by me
through any kind of weather

i don't wanna run away
just wanna make your day
when you fell the world is on your shoulders
don't wanna make it worse
just wanna make us work
tell me i will do whatever

it feels like nobody ever knew me until you knew me
feels like nobody ever loved me until you loved me
feels like nobody ever touched me until you touched me
nobody.. until you

it just took one hit of you now i'm addicted
cause i never thought i'd feel
all the things you made me feel
i wasn't looking for someone until you
you look so good
that i don't want to let you go

[babooshka]

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