"Atashi no Diary~" (.") ChocoLolita (",)

[ChocoLolita]

Waaa...!!
Hr ini qu br mulai ntn tsubasa Chronicles disk 1..
kyaaaaaa...

apik pek critaeee..
mengharukan..
hiks....

[ChocoLolita]

huaaaaaaaahhhhh....
dh lama gk buka...
hiks...
sekarang my famz lg mengalami krisis ekonomi...
hiks...
Godd...
helepppp plz...
hiks..
i'm tired 2 see my mom n dad depressed bcz of those things...T__________T

[ChocoLolita]

hufh...
akhirna ada harapan" baru..
i hope harapan kali ini bakal terwujud..

mom, dad, maav ia qu gk isa bantu apa"..
qu jg pengen kerja, bantu kalian..
qu gk pengen liad kalian menderita sendirian...
tp apa yg isa aq lakuin?

gomen ne...T______________T

[ChocoLolita]

knapa seh qu gk pernah pny temen yg bnr2 isa diandalin..
mereka cm manfaatin qu aja..
qu sedih taw!
qu ngorbanin smuwanya bwad kalian, kalian apa?
ternyata cm manfaatin qu aja..
mpe 1 kata maavpun kalian gk mao ucapin biarpun kalian taw kalian salah..T________T

[ChocoLolita]

hufh...
guys, i can't handle this anymore....

qu gk mungkin hidup dimana ada dia...
cz qu taw dy gk akan mao minta maav apapun salahnya..

demi menghindari rasa khawatir kalian krg pertengkaran qu ma dy ni, qu rela ngalah..

qu gk sanggup pergi ninggalin kalian, tp qu harus lakuin ini...
maavin aq..
qu sayang kalian smuwa..

ngambil keputusan ini serasa dh ilang nyawa aq...
T______________T
hontoni gomen nee...
kalian sahabat terbaik yg pernah qu punya...
T_______________________________T

bahkan tangisan 4 jamkupun masi lum isa legain perasaan ini..
qu dh kyk boneka yg rusak..
dh tanpa hati..
T______________T

[ChocoLolita]

capek...
capek...
gk nyangka qu ternyata km bnr" kemakan omonganx yessi...
huaaaaaaaaaaaa...
temen apaan kmu tuu...
grrrrrrr...
T________________________________T



hufhhh...bsk qu mw ke TP lg..


Christmas is coming...
what will I do 30 sec before Christmas?


God, i hope i'll get my friends back..
from the hand of that "nasty" girl..


I hate uuuuuu, yessica marcelina Oentoeng..!
i really" hate uuuu!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
the greatest backstabber in this whole world...
T___________T
go away from my life..!

[ChocoLolita]

wah..
ada sms gk jelas..
Fyn, jgn terpengaruh dee yooo...


plz...
i.L.u oweyz...
T_______________T

[ChocoLolita]

fyn..
i'm scared...
help me..
T___________T

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fyn, jgn frustasi" dunk..
crita lah klu frustasi...
qu jadi terkesan gk berguna nih klo nda..
T__________T

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lho fyn...
smalem saia memimpikanmuwh..
hiaaaaa~
ULTRA SUPER DUPER SWEET dream..
XD~
mauuuuuuuu!! XD~

[ChocoLolita]

hufhh...~
hiaaaaaaaaa..
kpanane ditelp alfyn!!
oh noooooo~
langsung melelehh~

kyaaaaaaaaa~ > <


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fyn...
huhuw...
kangen..T_____________T

[ChocoLolita]

yah..ntek dhe pulsae alfyn bwad nelp saia..
huhuwww...
T___________T
bencekno...

nunggu lg dhe mpe dee isi pulsa..


fynn..
lg ngapain km??
pgi" tah??
wez mam pagi n siank lom...?
jok sampe gk makan..
nti tambah parah..T__________T

[ChocoLolita]

hufh...
des kmaren genap 3 th aQ sayang ma X (nama dirahasiakan..XP)...
genap 3 th gk ada harepan...
ko, how could u do this 2 me?

11 DES 3 th yg lalu, aq knal ma 1 cowo di grj..
his name is "X"..
right, we know each other just bcz a thing that called "APPLE JUICE" di RO..
after a few talk about this "APPLE JUICE" thing, he asked me..

"lho, km ya maen ta?"
"hmm ya gtu lah...apao ko?"
"oo..gpp...mek nanya..."
"ouww..ic.."
"lv brp?"
"hmm..ini dikasi ma org charna.. 3 char lv 80++ smuwa..enak tow..hhe.."
"hha..aQ lv 94 lho~"
"aih..bot pasti..."
"enggak yooo..."
"Bot...bot..bot..lalala~"
"weee..enggak lho...."
"enggak sala...n enggak mao ngaku...hha.."
"hmm..kapan2 maen brg?"
"bole c..tp aq maen di net TP, jdi gk isa ol tiap saad"
"hmm..yaa..gpp..^^"

after that, tukeran no hp~
bwad ngabarin maen brgna kapan..@_@
n bcz he give his phone number first, i must send him a msg..

To: Ko 'X'
bot 100%! tee-hee..^^

From: Ko X
hee..nggak bot yoo...jahad pek..

To: Ko X
halah..bohonggg...~

From: Ko X
hha..io wez..tp mek dikit tok kok bot'e.....> <

To: Ko X
hha..
sami mawon to mas"..

From: Ko X
hha..
bis gni kmana? oL gk?

To: Ko X
hoh?
hmm.. maybe.. ke TP bis gni soale..^^

From: Ko X
ok"...

n, pas br aja sampe di TP..
---incomming call---
--------ko X-------

WOGH!!! ngapain org ni telp..@_@

^halo?^
#halo, me?#
*ha? 'me'?*
#ahaha...gila yow aQ...wez duwe bojo jek manggil" kmu 'me'#
*haa?? apaaa? gk kedengeran ko...ribut di sinii...*
#kmu gk oL ta??#
*ia ini OTW ke net'e..@_@ sabaaarr2..*
#oww...ok, i'll call u later..#
*ok2..*

ya pkok'na itu hari pertama kenal..
hari" lanjudd seperti byasa..
bedanya, ada sum1 yg merhatiin aQ..
yg nelp" aQ n nemenin aQ..
lama2 ya kecantol jg..@_@
ok, he's my first love...

dammit!
setelah qu inged2 kata2nya pas ntu yg aq ndiri gk tll denger, kekna dy ada ngumin 'pacar'2..
n di smsan jg ada blg "huhu..lg sakid..tp gk taw ini cewku kmana..."

ARGHH!!! saia kecantol ma cow orgg!!
HOW STUPIDD!!!

bbrp hari kmudian..
ditengah2 pembicaraan..

From: Ko X
Hmm..me, benere aQ sayang mbek km...

WHADDD???!!! HOW COULD u SAY THIS 2 MEE!!!! T_______T

To: Ko X
Sori ko...aq gk mao jadi slingkuhanmu..

From: Ko X
ia, i know...

To: Ko X
wez cukup..
jok baek2i aQ lg..^^ gk enak mbek bojomu ko...

From: Ko X
ehm..ok....sori....

To: Ko X
ya..gpp..^^

AAAAAAAA!!!!! I HATE U, KOOOO!!!!!!!!!! hiks... for the first time, my heart break..T_____T


ya gtu lah smuwa itu berlangsung...
damn...
it's hurt...
totally hurt...

dan setelah saia mengetahui kenyataannya..
pas aQ knal dy, sampe dy blg dy sayang ma aq, ternyata hubunganx ma pcrx tu lg renggang...

DAMN!!
saia dipermaenkan!!
Ko, jadi slama ini km cm manfaatin aQ tok??!!
AAARGGHH!!
u're a jerk, ko..
totally!!


yah, smuwa sudah terjadi..
gk bisa diulang..
aq ngrasa aq ni cew terbodoh di dunia...
isa percaya ma dy...
hiks..


n itu berlangsung sampe desember kmaren...
hati bodohku ini gk mao nglupain dy..
qu bener2 sayang ma dy..
biarpun dy dh gtuin aQ..
i'm so stupid..
but what i can do is NOTHING..


but however..
he's the one who taught me a feeling that called TRUE LOVE...

ya sudahlah..
masa lalu biarlah berlalu..


qu isa lupain dy berkad sum1 yg buad aQ tertarik skrg..
yea, just like what u guys thought...
aLfyn...
dunno why..
dia tu dingin bgt..
cuek bgt..
es aja kalah dingin ma dy..
n galakkk bangedhhh...
gampang emosi...

qu gk ngerti napa qu ska ma dy..
mungkin sifatnya yg mao nerima apa adanya itu yg bikin qu sk ma dy..

but..
i think, he didn't love me...
what should i do?


hufh....


apa aku harus mempersiapkan diri n hati bwad kehilangan org yg aq sayangi untuk ke 2 kalinya?
apa aku harus ngrasain rasa sakit yg sama itu lg...?

sumbody, help me...
reply di diarikuw ini jg gpp kok bagi yg mao ngasi pendapat...

[ChocoLolita]

hmmm...
ia..
tp di sni..
ada sebagian org yg nganggep 'meme' tu panggilan saiank..
pokokna sejak saat itu, aq agak trauma ma panggilan ntu..

soal alfyn..
hah???
pacaran??
dyna gk ngasi tanda" gtu..
hiks...T______T

[ChocoLolita]

nah ada 2 asumsi...
1 dy mank ga suka...
(anggap teman)
2 co yang so cool...
ampe2 malu buat keluarin tanda2...
coba lo yang lbh agresif(bukan yang gak2)
kek lo yang lbh deketin dy...
apa reaksi nya...
kalo masih diam aja yah terpaksa maen nekat...
bilang langsung i love you..
hahaha...
(kalo nekat lo)


NB:reply karena mendapat ijin dr yang punya diary

kekna yg ke 2 dhe..
soalnaaa....
dy tu bnr" cuek..
ya itu dh sifatna..
n dinginn...bgdd........@_@


truz masalah langsung I LOVE U?
huehhh???
whad?
@________@
bused..@_@

[ChocoLolita]

ARRRRRRRGGHHH!!!!!!!
ALFYN BUKAN GAYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!
POPO tu yg GAYYy~

huhuwwwwww...



tak pindah ke forum curhat ae wez..@_@

[ChocoLolita]

fyn...
aQ nganggu kmu tah...?
aQ mesti nglupain kmu tah?
jwb aQ fyn...
qu gk isa kek gni truz...
qu dah depressed berad mikirin kmu..
apa gk ada kesempatan bwad aQ?
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